KARALEEE

You’re probably never going to read this, but:

khoawinn:

This is my promise and my post to remind me in the future if I ever (which I do not think I will) forget.

I will always try my best to treat you the way you should be treated. I will always do the best to my ability to never neglect, forget, or demean you anyway AND to never take advantage of you in anyway. To always give you the proper attention you deserve, the proper praise you deserve, as well as the honesty and truths you deserve. Never will I intentionally hurt you in any way, shape, or form. I will try to be the best person to you as I can be. I will try to be loyal, trustworthy, respectful, and endearing to my fullest extent. I will probably get annoying sometimes and tell you multiple times that you look very beautiful, but that’s just me starstruck by your beauty. I will also warn you that I may look shy at times mostly because I’m so inexperience in this whole idea of love to me, but maybe that’s why I enjoy holding your hand so much hoping that you will lead the way for me.  I will try my best to respect the decisions your parents make and will always try to get you home not past your curfew and will keep you safe.  I also promise you that I will do my best to love you for which you deserve. 

One day I will be able to say this to you in person, but as of right now. I’m just going to leave this here. 

One day I really wish I find someone that loves me like this. Oh if only. <3 I will wait patiently. 

Here’s the honest truth about some doctors.

khoawinn:

Ever since I started working in the emergency room, I’ve grown accustomed to seeing patients coming in and out. Usually surviving and of course the occasional passing of someone.  What has strike me odd is that when a patient dies the doctors, from my perspective are never really gloomy or phased by it. It seems as though nothing from the patient’s death had affected them in anyway.  When a patient dies, the nurses or  in the rare case, the doctor, would come out into the lobby and break the news to the patient’s relatives and friends.  They would always say the same line, “We tried everything we could, but (Insert dead patient’s name here) did not make it.”  Now I want to highlight the word, “We tried everything we could.”  To me it means that the doctors to the BEST of their ability tried whatever they had at hand to save the patient’s life. In reality, doctors would try the same procedure, IV fluid, shock pads in hopes to get the heart beating again, and multiple adrenaline injections. Sometimes what I see is that when a patient had flat lined, the nurses and the doctors would just give up and call it a death and say, “Time of death [Insert the present time here].” When you go up and ask most people in the medical field why they went into the medical field, they would usually answer with the words, “I want to save and help people.” Now that is what the truth was when the doctors and the nurses were kids and when they grew up and learned what money was.. they lose that goal. They instead form the real and new goal of, I really went into the medical field, because it pays well. I would rather have doctors who really want to save lives, because that is their job. But we live in a society that puts financial means before other people’s lives.